西醫

最近，接觸西醫的頻率是有史以來最多的
其一當然是因為attachment的關係
其二是因為master的關係
其三是因為多了位西醫mentor的關係
感覺上有點像是從古代被拉回到現在似的

如此多的接觸，少不免會帶來一點衝擊
看到了優點，同時也看到了缺點
對attachment的感覺，上次寫了，不再重覆
進入第三星期，不禁問，我學到了甚麼？
的而且確，雖然只是短短的幾星期，而且在我嚴重偷懶的情況下，學到的還不少
相比起在深圳的日子，香港的醫生實在是太好了
倘若每一位中醫也都這樣的帶教，那就真是太好了（發白日夢中......）

MSc的課，上了一個月了
雖然還是習慣不了那種獨來獨往的感覺
但課程內容教得不錯，而且還開始勾起了我想做research的念頭
當然，現在還不是最好的時候......

參加了教區的師承計劃，我的mentor是同是保羅堂的一位西醫
剛巧星期天是醫療主日（又是每年一度用便西拉智訓的日子），早上的講道也是由他主講分享
很有共嗚
跟他談了一點中醫現況，自己的現況，很期待著日後有更多的分享交流
感覺上他是位很nice的mentor(至少比起崇基的mentor較談得來，也許這是"半個同行"的好處吧～)

很快，又要回到我的中醫世界了
我準備好了嗎？

Feelings & Thoughts

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,

"plans to give you hope and a future.

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I will be found by you," declares the LORD

Jeremiah 29:11 - 14

Feeling bad today......

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Just gone through a tired week.

Actually I don't know why I was so tired.

I was not as busy as many other people.

But still, I feel I didn't have time to rest.

Maybe the main reason was I felt so lonely.

Follow the MO by myself, nobody to talk with when I was free, I can gossip with nobody, and then going home alone, going to school and attend lesson alone......

I didn't need to talk much in a day.

It really made me depressed. I hate this......

How should I survive in this situation?

Dr. Cheung is really nice. He explained many things to me and took me to see the Echo procedure.

However, when he asked me what I want to see or learn here, I still can't answer......

I feel bad about this......

In the ward, I can see there is not much things to do with many patients.

Many of them just come and have many different tests or scans in order to rule out a list of diseases.

If nothing was found, congratulation! There is nothing we can do for you and you can go home.

I understand this is how western medicine works. But it seems turning hospital into a checking center......

At that moment, I strongly feel that Chinese Medicine is much more human......

In HK hospital, I can see that the works are clearly divided. If the patient is "lucky" enough, he/she can receive a series professional service from eg. doctors + physio + occu + social worker + special team of nurse(eg. stroke)......Wow, that's really a lot of ppl......

On the other hand, doctors duty become only deal with physically problems and referring other psycho-social problems or rehabilitation to other people.

I know this is somehow necessary and good for them in a hospital.

But is this the best holistic care? I don't know.

Moreover, what is a "doctor" anymore? It seems doctors job is doing referal and asking for consultation......

Maybe I am thinking to much again.....

Talked with a houseman in the ward.

I found that we are similar in many ways as a junior doctor/practitioner.

We need more experience!

I can see the MOs always teach them and let them do the procedures(or sometimes do together with them)

I really wish our practical training in mainland is also like this......

It's only daydreaming......

How should I adapt to my new life?

I don't like this lonely life......

第一天

第一天
與未來同事們見了面，感覺大家都很nice，不錯^^

等了又等，等完再等
由於負責的MO不是放假就是去了lab
結果經過輾轉的過程，由跟ward變了去跟OP
起搏器科(我以前不知道原來有這樣的一科...^^")的Dr Wu 很細心的為我講解
總算是找到了今天的棲身之所^^"
只可惜，星期三又要打回原形......
一切又要從未知開始

好~依家趁未今晚返學之前休息下先~^^

A New Chapter

新的一頁隨即展開
期待卻又疲累的心情交織著

疲累，讓我的日子開始過得有點混混噩噩

願我的身心都能預備好面對接下來的挑戰

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提醒自己
認清目標
不要好高騖遠
腳踏實地
做好眼前手上的每項任務
不要坐這山，望那山，一事無成

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有點枯乾了的感覺
是時候refresh一下了