求

掙扎
懷疑
然後釋放

感謝主，又上了一課。

不是藉口，更不是擋箭牌
而是我也有自己的角色，自己的責任。

感謝主，讓我在書中得著安慰，得著共鳴
讓我知道我仍要尋求
我仍要不住的禱告

主啊～求你讓我有信心的去追求及順服你的旨意。

Stressed or Desserts

The dissertation makes me in a deep anxiety.
It makes me think of giving up so many times.
It makes me deeply feel that it is a wrong decision to study master degree.
I don't think I can get through it......

Lonely and frustrated and helpless.......
It makes me want to get away from it but at the same time I can't help to be anxious about it in every single day.
How come I become so useless standing in front of this dissertation.

I just want to get it done, even if I can't do it well......
I'm afraid I'll get depression if I can't finish it.......

I am lack of courage to do what I want to do
I just can't help on thinking how other people may think....
Will they think this is just something meaningless?
Something that is in low quality and not worth doing it?
Or, these are just the worries that inside my brain?
I don't know, I don't even have the courage to tell people what I'm thinking.
I can't make myself clear about what I really want.